Enveloped: Busy

Running behind,
After taking it
Too easy
It seems,

Now,
Trying to get
Some focus
In my practice

But having
No luck,
Really feeling stuck
And not sure where to go,

Sometimes
Feeling like
I’d like to quit
But what to do instead?

Do I need
To do anything?
Or
Just get on with it,

Many tasks
Needing my attention,
Too many to mention
And yet, what’s needed?

Are they really
That important?
Or
Am I just making this up?

It’s not too clear
But I have no time now
To figure it out,
And so, I shall get up
And get to work.

Entrusting: Letting Go Into Action

Decisions, decisions,
So many choices
And directions
I could take,

Indecisive and confused
But full of energy
And so applied it
To daily tasks,

Much accomplished
And satisfaction obtained,
Then back to considering
What next to prepare for,

Turning inward,
Reflecting on practice,
Where is that going?
And where do I want to go with that?

What is enough?
What has been left out?
So many questions,
So many possible answers,

The mind is busy
And yet at rest,
Thinking, evaluating,
Imagining and figuring

But comfortable for now,
Following it’s own way
Enjoying a quiet evening
Of chores and audio Dharma talks,

Looking forward to tomorrow already
And yet preparing for bed,
Easing into a lower gear,
And feeling like
Enough has been said.

Entrenched: Deeply Engaged

Wild ride,
Coming home
To here
And setting off to shop,

Getting groceries
With gusto,
Not wanting
To stop!

Having
A wonderful time,
Being
And not being,

Remembering
And forgetting,
Feeling energy overflowing,
Rushing fully and deeply,

Not feeling sleepy
But zestfully present,
Not minding anything,
Not even opposition,

Fearlessly facing forward
And marveling at
The miracle
Of existence,

This life too short
But what’s it like?
Delicious!
When seen from a certain way

And what is that?
I couldn’t say
But I carry on enjoying it,
On, and on.