Entirely: Back to the Heart

So bogged down and gummed up,
Engrossed in insoluble problems
And wrestling with them
Until the ground shook,

The way seemed
Completely blocked
And I felt so despondent and stuck
With no means to get through or get up,

Sinking fast
And with no rescuer in sight,
Nor even a tree branch
Upon which to latch,

Doubt piled upon doubt,
Confusion on confusion,
Fully steeped in delusion
And ruinous rumination,

So concentrated on
Seeking answers or solace
That all else seemed pointless
And my attention locked onto the searching,

Peering deeply into
The source of the suffering,
Seeing nothing except seeing,
Waiting for what?

Then finally came
A route to follow,
As Ajahn Chah’s suggestion
Came back to me,

Namely that
Of reading
The book
Of the heart
And there at last, I found peace.