Endeavour: Investigating Aversion

“I can hardly wait
To get out of here,”
The thought ripped repeatedly,
Surprising me completely!

But writing about it
Brought me naught,
Except to
Bring attention to the aversion.

Even though I’d rather
Be somewhere else,
The mental spasms are reduced
Enough to break loose;

But
What is this disruptive power?
And where from?
Turning inward, I look,

Gazing steadily,
Seeing hardness
And residual tension,
Resistant and grim,

A roaring
Rattles in the ears
But I also hear
A clock ticking somewhere;

I wonder,
How long will this last
Before relaxation
Comes to pass?

Watching continuously,
Breathing in deeply,
Breathing out fully,
And then waiting patiently.