On the first anniversary of the beginning of my current meditation practice
During meditation I noticed that my feelings are often based on how I think I ought to feel. When I ask how I should feel, given the larger picture (in relation to the scheme of things—whatever that might be) I don’t know because I don’t know all that is happening or what is going to happen. (I probably don’t even have a clear idea of what has happened.)
The effect of this is to enable me to create distance between myself and my feelings without judging whether I should have these feelings or not. From this calmer ‘background,’ I look at the feelings, thoughts, etc., as if they are objects.
But are they really? If so, to whom do they belong? And who is it who is examining them anyway? Can the examiner be distinguished from the examined, or is this just a way of talking?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
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