Compound: Double Doubt

Some days it seems
I need an elephant
To pull me out of bed;
It’s such a struggle,

I’m in such a muddle,
Wild horses
Could not do the job,
Though one Buddha might.

Alas, where do they go?
Where do they come from?
For that matter,
What mindless speculation!

Sorry but
I’m afraid
That’s all I have
At the moment;

It’s really silly
Or quite pathetic
Depending on
Where you put it.

I wouldn’t bet
On my chances today;
I’m not feeling sprightly,
In fact I’m failing mightily.

My discouragement
Towers over me;
It overpowers me,
And makes me feel weak;

I’m not at my peak today,
No way!
If this is progress
I want a refund!
How unprofound can you get?