Brew: Agitation Stew

Today I am getting to know my blindness much better.

You may think that this is not very reassuring, and that I’m just writing nonsense from the other end of the crazy continuum. Be that as it may, it’s quite interesting in here, or from here, as the case may be.

From here, I see the benefits of being always alert to one’s state of heart, mind and body. I think we are always biased, but perhaps we can know our biases sufficiently to be aware that any decision we make is always biased.

This looks like just another beginning.

I do wish I’d stop worrying about how far I have to go, as this is probably meaningless, but I guess from this state this is just what my mind tends to do with itself. From within my current agitated state, my mind seems to have to do something or other, though not necessarily what I think I’d like it to be doing.

Then again, for all I know, not liking what’s happening is probably part of this state too. It may take a long time for me to explore this multi-layered continent, this tangled ball of ideas, feelings, impressions, sensations, and whatever else is going on today.

Even as I examine this, however, it keeps changing, but into what? By the time I think I know it will change again. It’s always changing. How ridiculous that I think I can actually keep track. I might as well try to trace the changes in the iron atoms in my bed, but I try it anyway.

That’s what made sense to me from there. It’s gone now. By writing about it I have changed it again, or maybe writing was the change and I missed it.

Come to think of it, don’t even blink!

On the other hand, blinking could be it too.

EEK! ^^ LOL