Breakthrough: Mindful Discovery

To do, to do:
Making macaroni and cheese stew.
The colours are so lovely,
The cheese so creamy,
Mindfully eating this should be easy,
But I still rush, rush, busy, busy.

What is my big hurry?
If I slow down, what’s the worry?
For what am I tearing from?
First to last spoonful?

Where am I attempting to get,
Or get away from?
Am I trying to win a bet?
Or, is this just habit?
To grab and run,
To stuff my mouth and fumble around,
Eating at my desk,
Always reaching for the next task.

It seems so foolish
But I can’t seem to
Stop doing this.
Perhaps today I will cease
Speeding like a thief being
Chased by the police.

Otherwise I don’t see how
I will enjoy any peace;
If I keep on racing to the finish
Only to start in on another dish,
Or another job or chore;

That is, unless
I learn how to find
Some stillness in the chaos.
Then maybe I will rest.
But until then I will just
Have to do my best.