Decree: And so it is

Saw “not yours”
And letting go,
Streaming out
And floating away,

Fading into
The mental distance,
Trying to keep this in mind,
As every time ‘tis just what I need;

Stop talking about
Blizzards of emotion
And torrents of thought,
Have to let it fly by

In time will get used to it
Coming up, letting go and drifting off,
So it does not distract me
From other things,
As it frequently now does;

But now mind all over the place,
Need mindlessness for a time,
Intentional distraction
So I don’t get lost in anguish,

Really frustrating,
Tried to notice what that felt like,
At first just raised more anger,
‘what’s the point of noticing,
As so what else is new?’

I feel like it’s all about
Killing time until the bell goes,
Just waiting, really boring and tedious,
But noticing posture re-energized me,
As that’s where the ease was.
Turned to counting breaths then,
Building concentration.