Deep-Seated: Out from under the Pillow

Horrible night,
Barely slept,
Anger and irritability,
Delusion and doubt,

A layer of futility and disgust
Covers everything
But then during meditation, thought,
‘This sitting is my answer,’

‘Attending to,
Just this,’
And yet distraction set in,
Awareness got lost once more,

Until,
Just before sleep,
As I lay waiting
To drift off,

I noticed confusion,
And from this energetic state
Emerged strong presence
And discovery,

For there I saw,
There was no clinging occurring,
What a startling find!
How did that happen?

Where was my attention
On this occasion?
How could I have gone
And missed out on such an important event?

'Oh well,' I thought, 'here it is now,
To marvel at
And enjoy
For as long as it persists.'