Collapse: Doubters’ Prison?

Oh, botheration!
I’ve hit a snag:
I’m sick of meditation
This Dharma is a drag!

How long this time,
Will this last?
Is it the end?
I wonder,

Or, to be ignored
As just another
Dharma blunder?
Who is stealing my thunder?

Is it me,
Or the weather,
Should I give up,
Or try harder?

Apply more effort,
Is that what it takes?
In this snakes and ladders
It feels all snakes.

Why serpents?
This is no Eden,
I’m merely fighting
For my freedom.

Is that what I’m doing?
Striving for liberation
When did that happen?
I thought I was dreaming.

I wanted to get through the day
Without screaming,
What is this, new scheming?
I’ve lost my way again;
I hope I can recover.