Civil: Breakfast Notes

Horrible depression,
Inertia,
Aching,
Discouragement
And despair.

What am I supposed
To do with this?
How do I practice
With such anguish
And difficulty?

I decided to
Practice the practice of
Keep moving,
Keep trying to do,
While being open,

To be present for
These states,
This situation,
This particular set
Of conditions.

But then I lay down
What is that?
I wrote this,
I started thinking,
I lay down,

I thought some more,
Then I got up again,
felt better,
And wrote again
Of what happened next.

Now what?
Eat my oatmeal, I guess,
And try to be present
For that too.