Catching: Turning Towards My Aversions

Cautiously I sat to meditate.
Indecision arose:
How should I approach
This session?

Examine this confusion
I concluded,
And upon so doing,
Found interest in the breathing.

Return to sanity:
Breathing in
Breathing out,
Noticing what’s present.

Awareness of pain
And restlessness;
Investigation of this agitation
Revealed interesting results:

Fluttering in the chest
Producing contraction,
Tension causing more pain,
Further hurt triggering added discomfort.

Drowsiness set in:
An attempt to get away
From this endless cycle
Of cause and effect.

Caught in a round of
Causes, conditions,
And consequences,
What is the strategy?

Sitting with this process,
Turning towards the experience,
Being aware but not in it;
Kindly acknowledging and accepting,
Exploring, but not identifying with.