Climb: Micro-Progress

Depressed mood,
How to
Make it better?

Brushed my teeth,
Aimed attention there,
Depression back-grounded,

Directed myself
Not to get involved,
Kept with the action.

Black moods
Come and go,
Let them.

Stayed with
The activity,
Leaving the mood alone.

Let resistance be,
Felt it,
But hung in with the brushing.

Breathed in and out
And kept busy,
Focused on the task.

Held steady,
Let go,
And looked in the mirror,

Neither feeding,
Nor retreating,
Nor getting lost,

Very difficult job,
But it
Felt right.

Clearing: Late Night Log

Hectic day in a
Busy week,
Couldn’t stop for anything,
Had to go at peak.

Drowsiness set in
At the end of the evening,
Forget all about blogging
And writing and believing,

Trouble picking a topic
Just driveling along,
Trying to say something
But fuzzy mind is dawdling.

Did some visualizations
And found some rest,
Putting all together
To prepare for the next test,

Hoping for the best,
But trying to be in this moment,
Relying on now instead of
Resting on hope,

No time to mope,
Have to pull up my socks
And get ready for more,
Though not knowing what it’s for,

Hence, have to sleep loose,
To be up for anything,
I need to be equipped
In case the chips slip,

I can’t afford to get depressed,
As that always makes a mess,
Of my mood and my sleep;
So, no more ruminating
And off I go to bed!

Clamour: Mind Flutter

Pain, loss, grief,
Commentary and reaction,
Judging and rage,
Don’t like this page.

Expanded attention
To let be what be,
Letting inside be
And outside be.

But the arrows
Kept flying,
And discouragement
Dropped by for a visit,

Yet felt good
About facing this onslaught,
Really being there
For this projectile barrage,

Self-consciousness,
Irritability,
Rumination and worry,
Struggling to include it,

Frenetic energy overflowed
Into compulsive thinking,
Then converted to
Walking and stretching,

Working with agitation,
Containing it,
Being it,
Waiting for it to go,

Besieged by longing
For a slow down,
Yearning towards ease,
But chaotic mind,
Not easily appeased.