Curly: Around and Around

Simply sitting,
Attempting to recapture
The state I experience
When listening to audio plays:

Effortlessly being,
Not thinking,
Just awareness,
Without disturbing emotions or discomforts;

But I seem unable to discover
How to sustain this effect
Without the aid of
Elaborate auditory input.

How peculiar,
What to make of it?
Is it merely some sort of habit?
And if so, how else to perpetuate it?

What’s needed
To bring it about
When I’m sitting?
And how get it to stay?

Meanwhile,
Aching aback the shoulders
Persists while settling in,
Waiting and observing:

Thoughts, feelings, sensations
Fizzing up and swirling
For the duration of
The sitting;

So many happenings
Buzzing through the mind,
Until I forget about them,
And then, unexpectedly, from within calm
I hear the bell chime.