Coterminous: Against the Wall

No matter
How many times
I see clearly,
I go blind again.

Even though
I’ve seen repeatedly how
Facing pain
Leads to bliss,

How confronting disgust
Proceeds through
To neutrality,
And release,

Over-confidence
Leads to despondency
And depression,
And back out once more,

Into happiness,
Even euphoria,
And deep
Contentment;

I keep forgetting,
And stumbling around
In the dark,
Yet again,

Until I find my balance,
Only to lose it,
Or forget about it
Until the next misstep.

But perhaps this is merely
What is meant by continually
Discovering and rediscovering
One’s beginner’s mind,
Or at least, my particular version.