Conveyance: Breathing Forward

Awakened by
Construction,
Unable to
Get back to sleep;
Grasping at answers.

Anger, frustration,
Punctuated by fantasies
Of other times spent
In silence with companions,
Just sitting together:

Sitting at the movies,
On the front steps
Of a dining hall
At summer camp,
Glumly missing some hero
Of ours, sharing the misery;

Sitting at breakfast
With a housemate
At university,
One who listened
One who took the time,
Punctuated with black tea
And sherry wine;

Finally,
I settled into
Breathing,
Setting my intention, as:

Breathing is
My world today,
Inside and outside,
Letting go inside
Letting go outside,
This will be my goal.

Tomorrow: the results of this experiment.