Compassion: Home Remedies

Up to my eyeballs
In doubt;
Didn’t really meditate,
Just sat at first.

Quite out of it
But enjoyed the fog.
Later body settled into
Spontaneous breathing awareness;

Then pain
In back of shoulders
And neck;
Floated in this discomfort,

But aching all over followed;
Did yoga movements
While sitting, but
Caught in reflections again,

Thought, ‘everything leading
In the wrong direction now,
But what choice do I have?’
Worn out and achy.

Instead of feeling
Sorry for self,
Stretched, ate,
Ran a hot bath, and relaxed;

All effective,
My efforts worthwhile,
Even though bogged down in
Recurring theme: my current situation.

At bedtime noticed depression,
Thought, ‘hello, old friend,’
Relaxed into it,
Rolled over and slept.